The heart is sure a complicated thing. It is here that our true selves dwell; within this unseen part of ourselves that we keep our darkest secrets and deepest yearnings. Yet often times it is concealed from the sight of the world, and sometimes, even from ourselves.
And maybe this is our problem. That we live in a world so full of facades that we never take the time to dig deep within and look at what lies beneath. We like fast fixes, one stop shops, that we forget to reflect upon our mistakes, to give time for gratitude to sink in, or to grieve our losses. We neglect our emotions as inconveniences.
Because honestly, to look within yourselves requires courage – a lot of it. For to go deep is to see all the yuckiness that fills the heart. People who know themselves well enough should, in fact, be self-loathing.
Yet in His kindness, the Lord redeems even the most wretched of hearts. For it is there that He dwells.
If only, we were brave enough to face wrestling through hating ourselves, maybe we would find grace to be enough, and more beautiful than ever.
So I pray, that the words that are penned here will only draw you deeper into yourselves, and ultimately, to find your true selves embraced in Christ completely. And I pray, that to see such deep love is to fall deeper in love with Him.
In Christ,
Jessica Tanoesoedibjo
“Without knowledge of the self, there is no knowledge of God. Our wisdom, insofar as it ought to be deemed true and solid wisdom, consists almost entirely of two parts: the knowledge of God and of ourselves.” – John Calvin